How Defective?

For me, the exact nature of my wrongs is the unspoken, self-defeating assumptions that give rise to my thoughts and actions. These include notions that my best is not good enough, that I am not worthy of love, and that I have been hurt too deeply to ever really heal. ~ Family Groups, Al-Anon. Courage to Change—One Day at a Time in Al‑Anon II (Kindle Locations 3988-3990). Al-Anon Family Groups. Kindle Edition.
I place the future in the Hands of God. The past is gone; the future is not yet. Now am I freed from both. For what God gives can only be for good. And I accept but what He gives as what belongs to me. ~ Schucman, Dr. Helen. A Course in Miracles (Kindle Locations 19482-19484). Foundation for Inner Peace.

Could I be too defective to really ever heal?
I could feel that was truth as well as accepting
my assumptions my best doesn't feel good enough
and I don't deserve love, but I don't.
Those are some of my once-clung-to
defects of character, not the truth.
I really am entirely ready
for God to remove them when they interfere
with my usefulness to God and my fellows.
I claim the truths of the Course in Miraclesthat "The past is gone; the future is not yet.
Now am I freed from both."
I accept the truth God gives only good
and that is what He gives to me...everything I have!