Don't Look at Me!

Fear that people would know the real me kept me from divulging the real me. Why risk rejection? The irony is that, in wanting to avoid rejection, I isolated myself, which put me in the same solitary, lonely position that rejection from other people would cause. ~ Overeaters Anonymous. Voices of Recovery (Kindle Locations 3543-3545). Overeaters Anonymous.

I recently heard two people I admire
identify as introverts. I have no idea
why it had never occurred to me
that's me!! I prefer to blend into background,
Funny, when the phase was bipolar analysis
I understood I was the leader type
with a strong bent to librarian-ish
or a performer talking to crowds
but not individuals or chatting.
I long believed people believed
I was their friend but that I had no friends.
I know how to be lonely
but the beauty of Recovery is I need not be.
I may still fear for you to look at me, to know me,
but I don't have to be alone. I do have friends,
and I like for them to know me!