Shortly afterward I came home drunk. There had been no fight. Where had been my high resolve? I simply didn’t know. It hadn’t even come to mind.~ Alcoholics Anonymous (Kindle Locations 245-246)
It's that pesky question a sponsor asks when you report a slip.
Why? The honest answer for me often is, "I don't know."
But how can that be? Let me count the ways.
1. I'm distracted, busy, haven't had time to use the tools.
2. I'm mad. I've been "good" and nothing's changed.
3. I deserve it!! And I can take it and "forget" since I'm in charge.
4. I'm sad, mad, distracted, jealous, embarrassed...I need it.
5. She offered it and I can't turn her down.
6. Everyone is eating it and I have to fit in.
7. I forgot.
8. They were on sale.
9. It's a holiday! It's expected.
10. I don't know! (and don't want to.)
Why? The honest answer for me often is, "I don't know."
But how can that be? Let me count the ways.
1. I'm distracted, busy, haven't had time to use the tools.
2. I'm mad. I've been "good" and nothing's changed.
3. I deserve it!! And I can take it and "forget" since I'm in charge.
4. I'm sad, mad, distracted, jealous, embarrassed...I need it.
5. She offered it and I can't turn her down.
6. Everyone is eating it and I have to fit in.
7. I forgot.
8. They were on sale.
9. It's a holiday! It's expected.
10. I don't know! (and don't want to.)
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