Sick and Tired

When I became sick and tired of being sick and tired, I finally surrendered and came to the Program. ~ Anonymous. A Day at a Time: Daily Reflections for Recovering People (Hazelden Meditations) . Hazelden Publishing. Kindle Edition. 

Enough is enough trying everything else
is trying everything else. Sick and tired
becomes exhausted and out of excuses.
I got to the rooms of recovery
close to twelve years ago. But I had considered myself
a member of Overeaters Anonymous
for more than a month. My instant
of membership happened on December 17,
2006, as I got in the car to eat cappuccino
and an apple fritter. I spoke to God,
"This is stupid!" I ate and drank anyway,
of course. But since that day I've moved
toward Recovery. A fall that injured my rotator cuff
Christmas Eve then a London trip over New Years,
I did the best I could. January's schedule had to be cleared
for meeting times, then a snowy day when only I
got to the meeting. The next week worked
and I took a 30-day chip rather than a newcomer's.
Fast forward eleven years with significant opportunities
to be of service, then a year ago today again
I became sick and tired of being sick and tired,
and I finally surrendered the food more completely
and my abstinence has been more in line,
my Recovery more real, and without guilt
I can tell you I've a year of clean abstinence.
My behavior before had too often still be stupid,
but with God's guidance this day next year
will be two year's clean abstinence!!