Honesty, With Meaning

When you make a promise to yourself, it must be one that is made with your full commitment—otherwise, it cannot be considered as a binding agreement. It is like speaking a truth with your hands hidden behind your back and your fingers crossed. ~ Dean, Amy E. Morning Light: A Book of Meditations to Begin Your Day (Kindle Locations 897-899). Hazelden Publishing.

How many times did I promise to do better, to be better?
In 1986 I told myself if I didn't grow up before I turned forty
I was never going to become a real adult. As usual
that really meant to diet and lose weight but more...
My law firm had fallen apart, and while I'd earned
for the partnership, for myself I gave my services away.
Besides a diet I needed a paycheck. So I ran for office,
and changes happened...not recovery, not for years,
but honest change. And today is thirty years since the commitment,
the change, and a new grasp of honesty with self happened.