What's Wrong with a Safe World?

In your private thoughts, you are still trying to order your world so that it is predictable and feels safe. Not only is this an impossible goal, but it is also counterproductive to spiritual growth. ~ Sarah Young. Jesus Calling (p. 361). Thomas Nelson. Kindle Edit.

My intention all those days, years, decades
was to control things, to succeed perfectly,
to shine as a sterling example of planning,
of implementation, of excellence.
I failed miserably, seeing the big picture,
squandering chances to see to crucial details...
technicalities leaving sinkholes rather than potholes.
I put up a good front because people around me
noticed the essential trivialities.
Then I found recovery, turned my life and my will
over to the care of the God of my understandings.
And He took control, so long as I daily surrendered
again daily and did my part. But so long
as I ignore details, my world remains in disarray,
but as long as my desire is to surrender,
people still keep me safe in the trivialities
that matter, and my spiritual growth,
my trust in my Higher Power to keep keepers
in my life to smooth the towering waves.
Thank God, I have the recovery to understand
it's all going to be okay.