Don't Fence Yourself In

...my life will be as fair to me as I allow it to be. ~ Overeaters Anonymous, Second Edition, Kindle Locations 1978-1979

I set the barriers, up close, right around me
for protection, security, safety...
but most of the time they hold me in,
don't let anybody, anything – even luck —
near me. So, how much protection do I need?
Am I not secure enough just being reasonable?
I can't keep what scares me most from me
with any fence – physical, emotional or spiritual —
because it rests inside me, festering, fomenting,
yeast in the oven of my fear.
But in my fears I protest disparity,
chances slipping past me, refusing to admit
I fenced them out.