I know you feel responsible, Joseph, that is your nature, but responsibility and blame are not the same thing. ~ R. J. Ellory, A Quiet Belief in Angels
Blame, shame, guilt, fault —
to claim it, own it, comes naturally,
maybe not to normal folk,
but who's normal?
But why? Because I deserve it,
at least that's what the committee —
the one in my head —
drums into my psyche.
And do you believe what you're told?Only the bad, the negative, the denigrating.
Rather selective, isn't that?
You hear praise, commendation too.I don't believe that! It embarrasses me,
singles me out. And blame does not?No. Blame stays in my head.
Others don't see the blame, the shame.
Invisible, ephemeral, imaginary?
I wouldn't say that. But it's true, you know?
You know.I know.
to claim it, own it, comes naturally,
maybe not to normal folk,
but who's normal?
But why? Because I deserve it,
at least that's what the committee —
the one in my head —
drums into my psyche.
And do you believe what you're told?Only the bad, the negative, the denigrating.
Rather selective, isn't that?
You hear praise, commendation too.I don't believe that! It embarrasses me,
singles me out. And blame does not?No. Blame stays in my head.
Others don't see the blame, the shame.
Invisible, ephemeral, imaginary?
I wouldn't say that. But it's true, you know?
You know.I know.
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