Inward Realities

It is being constantly revealed, as mankind studies the material world, that outward appearances are not inward reality at all. (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 48)

He's talking about atoms, molecules
scurrying around in steel girders.
Yep, outward solid as a rock.
Inside, buzzing, busy, almost random.
What does my outside look like?
Confident. Competent. Complete.
On the inside? All too often, chaotic,
incompetence, incomplete, or so it seems
when I stand in my fear. When aligned,
though, with Confidence, Competence,
Completeness usually just known as "God,"
the world still doesn't see what's real.
The real me is that fear, that trembling.
But – Thank God! – the God in me,
the puller of the strings, shines through