When The Steps Become Slippery

 It is impossible for those who have once been enlightened, who have tasted the heavenly gift, who have shared in the Holy Spirit, who have tasted the goodness of the word of God and the powers of the coming age and who have fallen away, to be brought back to repentance. To their loss they are crucifying the Son of God all over again and subjecting him to public disgrace. ~Hebrews 6:4-6 (NIV)
Then he fell victim to a belief which practically every alcoholic has – that his long period of sobriety and self-discipline had qualified him to drink as other men. Out came his carpet slippers and a bottle. In two months he was in a hospital, puzzled and humiliated. He tried to regulate his drinking for a while, making several trips to the hospital meantime. Then, gathering all his forces, he attempted to stop altogether and found he could not. ~ Alcoholics Anonymous, Page 32

Recovery – so glorious,
the most important thing in my life —
joy beyond joy, peace beyond peace.
New vistas open, new challenges;
courage enhanced by program,
I move forward.
Reading? Meditation?
Calls? Meetings?
Sure. So very important —
but first I must…
then there’s…
Recovery – so glorious.
How did it slip away?
Why can’t I pull it back?
I’ve tasted the manna from heaven.
Where did it go?
I’m powerless.

God, all things are possible for you.
Thanks for reeling me back in.
I pray for those standing at the doors,
wanting back in. Give them the courage to ask.

From Rollins, Barbara. OAStepper,
A Cloud of Witnesses -
Two Big Books and Us
(Kindle Locations 843-864).
Eagle Wings Press imprint of
Silver Boomer Books.