The God of Understanding

No matter how I understand God, I will be grateful that God understands me. ~ Beattie, Melody. The Language of Letting Go: Hazelden Meditation Series (p. 197). Hazelden Publishing. Kindle Edition.

For some it's an issue, the God of our understanding.
Some of us did not believe God existed.
Some felt ill-used by God. None of us
felt worthy of love. But we found
a God to understand even if we had to act as if ,
even if we found it necessary at first
to hold control, to set up the job description
of a god we could understand
or borrow a god from our sponsor,
whatever it took we looked at ourselves
and we found we were changing, becoming
who we wanted to be, a feat we had tried
over and over again and knew we hadn't done it now.
We nay or may bot ever understand
the God of our understanding
but some Power outside us shows up
often enough, and does it right enough times
that even though we do not, could not,
will not really understand, we like the process,
the comfort of TRYING to understand,
we like it, accept it, rely on it because
there's a Being of Understanding
whether, truth be told, we understand
he's got it in shape and we follow,
without touching the steering, because
whether we understand or not,
we are truly grateful He understands us.