Food Is Not My Problem

Food is not my problem. Food is my solution! ~ Brenda Q

For years food was my problem.
If I could just stay on the latest,
the greatest, the sure-thing diet
until I was skinny, the world
would welcome me, celebrate me,
adore me, emulate me, love me...
But the diets didn't last. They worked!
Sure, they worked. They all made sense.
(Well, some of the crazy...insane...ones
not so much. But most of them.)
I lost as long as I kept it up
but never made it to the goal,
made the math fit into the chart,
got the two pounds a week
or walked every day for two miles
or fasted a day of the week...
it worked while I stayed at it
but had this problem with food.
It defeated me.

But then I got to OA and learned
food was not my problem,
food was my solution! The way I coped,
the escape from feeling dumb,
from being ugly (a.k.a fat),
from feeling a failure. Food
as my solution didn't work at all
and when I learned that,
figured out how to cope
with the fear, the resentment, the anger...
then food was not my problem
and any of the diets could become
a food plan that actually worked
when food was not my problem.