Consequences

When I lose that battle with my will, my will gets stronger. I haven't lost it over an apple. Yet. ~ Joy C

I'm tired. It's just a smidgen.
I deserve it. It's really not breaking rules,
not even bending -- much.
Nobody cares. And if they did
99% of the world
would see this doubt as absurd.
Perfectionism is a defect, an imperfection.
But I know better. The fact I'm rationalizing
means I'm fighting my willfulness.
And if I yield this time the game board changes,
advantage will. Chalk ones more up for
setting me up for relapse. The apple's not worth it.