I Don't Regret

For many years I acted in foolish ways,
In ways I always knew were foolish
and just plain wrong. I ate compulsively
and not just ate...stupid things, the nutrition
trumped by senseless sugars, flour, excess carbs.
I lied, manipulated, hid what I was doing,
thought only of my needs and wants.
I made decisions based on my longings
using my husband as an excuse,  blame-owner
when he'd never had a say.
I figured out I was killing myself with stress
but made only superficial changes
for ten more years. But  it's true,
the Big Book promise. "We will not
regret the past nor wish to shut that door."
I don't regret because I found Recovery,
thank God!