Reluctance

Some of the things I need to tell you...I don't want to tell you. ~ Kitt M

Secrets are my life. I've come to understand
it's for my own good, it's important to share,
for when I'm holding secrets I protect them,
my reputation, my self worth my ego
by reticence, by reticence. But when I do.
I sabotage my food plan, my abstinence,
my holding grudges, storing resentments,
my whole recovery by sealing my lips,
by trying to sell you the false picture that I'm perfect.
Some of the things I need to tell you...I don't want to tell you,
but I must!