Two-Ton Telephone

Bench-pressing three hundred pounds
can be easier than picking up the phone —
even the one you carry in your hand
when it's for an outreach call, not a comfort one —
but calling once it's done seems so right,
so natural, so comfortable. When you've done it
a hundred times does it get easier? 
I guess I don't know. I call my sponsor
and other people, but with a reason,
not just reaching out. I'm allergic to phones.
It's not the truth, but it's an easier truth to claim
than what I fear the real one might be,
so I'll keep on avoiding the two-ton phone...
until I get desperate enough to use all the tools
to reach the goal of recovery.