Honesty

  If you will honestly face the truth about yourself and the illness… ~ Overeaters Anonymous "Our Invitation to You"

Face the truth about me.
I can cheat on an abstinent meal,
rounding the measures just barely,
getting one more grape to make enough
but never stopping short of that.
I can hedge about my weight,
telling the truth but wording it
so it's the total amount I lost
no matter how long ago that was,
how pounds have creeped back up.
I can go six calories over the top
of a two-hundred count day's limit
but never that much below the bottom
of the range. I'm a compulsive person,
I'm an eater who eats that way,
and I'm compulsive about the way
I measure even when I call it
recovery.