In the past when something bothered me, I'd say nothing rather than face an argument. It seemed better for me to be upset than to risk upsetting someone else...
Today I suspect that adversity has value I hadn't previously recognized. When I face adversity and deal with my problems or express my feelings, things have a chance to improve. ~ Courage to Change, page 139
The line I didn't copy, well a line,went on with Even if they don't,
I release some of the pressure.And sometimes it is scary. But it speaks...
it speaks in the words I have finally begun
living life on life's terms. I've known a while.
I've been aware of acting from fear,
not from my choices, not from responsibilities
outside of us, of the two, of codependence.
I do what's easiest, what causes the least ire,
following orders, acting the lackey,
playing the coward. I'd rather keep silent,
continue yielding, not upsetting.
I prefer to avoid adversity. I'd like to say
what a lesson I've learned here,
how I'll be different. I'd like to grow
by leaps and bounds, to claim my pedestal.
But all I can promise is to ask for courage
to change or at least the courage to ask
for the willingness to ask for the courage to change.
I release some of the pressure.And sometimes it is scary. But it speaks...
it speaks in the words I have finally begun
living life on life's terms. I've known a while.
I've been aware of acting from fear,
not from my choices, not from responsibilities
outside of us, of the two, of codependence.
I do what's easiest, what causes the least ire,
following orders, acting the lackey,
playing the coward. I'd rather keep silent,
continue yielding, not upsetting.
I prefer to avoid adversity. I'd like to say
what a lesson I've learned here,
how I'll be different. I'd like to grow
by leaps and bounds, to claim my pedestal.
But all I can promise is to ask for courage
to change or at least the courage to ask
for the willingness to ask for the courage to change.
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