Circumspect

Wary and unwilling to take risks…
stuck in the past, in the survival mode
a niche carved out of escape, of avoidance,
of the behaviors that once upon a time
in la-la land met some need…
though the need no longer exists
and the behaviors have morphed
from comfort to torture.
Circumspect, a horse to ride
all the way to desperation, to giving up.
And then, finally, the risk of reaching out,
of admitting defeat and welcoming recovery,
ready to be reckless, audacious,
bold enough to grow.