Living or Dying

I couldn't go on living the way I was dying. ~ Gary

A country song talks of living
like you were dying,
of letting go and going for broke,
doing both at the same time,
emphasis on life.
But addiction makes living
the same as dying, both at a time
but dying can't come soon enough.
It's not the dying that makes living
tantalizing, challenging, a thrill...
It's a life rid of meaninglessness,
soaring on powerlessness
that makes dying bearable,
acceptable, a part of living
despite the fact we're all dying
but – please – not now!